Thursday, October 27, 2011

October 27th, 2010

One year ago today marks my due date with Ainslee. Just wanted to share a couple maternity pics of my last days being pregnant with her.

Today I was sent a story, another blog post, and I read through this woman's story about adoption. The one thing through this woman's pain and confusion that she kept referring to was this:

When telling God: "God, we are confused."
He would then reply with, " I am not finished yet."

This thought just made me weep today. I know we are in the middle of a very bad storm, one that is consuming and confining at this point in our lives. However, reading those words "I am not finished yet" gave me hope. It made me cry because it's true. He's shown me He's not finished yet. Our story is not finished. It's been an ugly chapter losing Ainslee, but a beautiful one having her. It's been a beautiful chapter in our marriage, a beautiful chapter with Adrian, and He's added another beautiful chapter with Baby "Hope."

I need to remind myself that while Ainslee's loss is very much a part of our story, it's not the entire thing and there are good things to come.



  1. What a wonderful way to look at this time of your lives. I couldn't agree more that when you are facing the worst storm you could have imagined, God is still at work in your life and has more to this. Praying for you and your sweet family during this chapter of your lives.

  2. Look how cute you were with Ainslee! Loved those pics. I loved what you said how it was an ugly chapter losing her but a beautiful one in having her. <3 That made me smile. I feel the same way. God isn't finished with your family yet and I can't wait to see what is coming your way. Your a blessing, Channan. And I love that you call your baby " Baby Hope" too. They really are giving us hope again aren't they? God is good.

    Love ya girl!
    Praying for your family