Farewell February....Hello HADLEE!

I can't tell you how happy I am to see February go. The first half of February was spent grief stricken and the second half was spent trying to recover and gain back energy. After February 12th, the day we buried Ainslee, I have just been exhausted. It has been an exhuasting year of grief, emotions, anxiety, sadness. I felt after Valentine's day, that I could start to breath again. It's nice to come up for air. I've just been exhausted. I think there's got to be so many emotions and hormones that have been happening in the last 2 years with getting pregnant with Ainslee and having her, losing her, getting pregnant with Hadlee, and anticipating her arrival. Right now, I am glad to have February over with until next year and next on our agenda...welcoming Hadlee!

So, it's time to try to focus on all of our blessings and the wonderful things we have going on in our lives. We have a beautiful 2 1/2 year old that fills our heart with love. And we are 5 weeks and 6 days from having Hadlee, totally not counting. :)

I am now almost 34 weeks pregnant. We got to see Hadlee two days ago, Adrian went to and he kept wanting to hear her heartbeat. We couldn't get a good picture of her face because she was head down and face down. She's getting pretty crammed in there, but seemed really content when she was resting. She doesn't rest much. Her measurements are all right on with where she is gestationally. She has hair! She doesn't have fluid in her kidneys! Ainslee had fluid in her kidneys that they noticed at my 38 week sono and I've been having them check Hadlee's kidneys as well. Hadlee was in the 52% and was estimating at 5 pounds and 1 ounce. We could see her practicing her breathing which is by far my most favorite thing to see. I remember seeing that with Adrian and how amazing I thought that was. I can't believe that babies can practice this in utero. It's just amazing.

I'm officially scheduled for my repeat c-section on April 12th, 3 days before her due date. I'm hoping the next weeks will pass quickly. I am so ready for her to be here and praying for a safe delivery for both her and I. I'm ready to look at the face of Ainslee's little sister. I'm already blessed with looking at her older brother's little face, and now another blessing to remind us of God's love. This month, Hadlee is being given 2 showers so we have exciting things to surround us with and look forward to. So ready for her to be in my arms and part of our family. I can't wait to tell her all about Ainslee.