Saturday, March 31, 2012

A Crazy Busy Weekend

I'd say this is a much long overdo post. For some reason, after we passed Ainslee's 1 year anniversary in Heaven, I felt like a big weight was lifted. I felt like I could breath. And yet, I was exhausted and didn't want to do anything. I focused on work, on Adrian and our family, and of course on our Hadlee. I've had so many things come up that I've thought about writing about and then just decided not to. So, today I thought, I just need to get back into the swing of things.

This weekend has been so busy. Friday Adrian had a birthday party to go to in the afternoon for a little girl at his preschool. All his kids from class were there and it was so fun to see them all together outside of the school setting. It was at a gym and he had so much fun. I had so much fun just watching him and letting him do gym activities that we normally don't get the chance to do. After we went to Travis' parents for dinner, and then caught a baseball game at Travis' high school. Adrian had a lot of fun running around chasing baseballs.

This morning we were up bright and early to go to our nephew and niece's soccer games. The first game started at 8 and they won! We then spent some time at Travis' sister's house until the next game at 10:30. Then my niece played her game and did a great job scoring 2 goals. Adrian loves to go watch them play and have fun with his cousins. We barely made it out of the parking lot and Adrian was passed out.

After we got him home, he took a much needed 3 hour nap, and I had to still wake him up. We then went out to eat with the neighbors and their little girl. Their little girl was born 2 weeks after Ainslee. I love being around her and Adrian together to just for a minute imagine what life would be like. It's hard to imagine since Ainslee isn't here, but I can pretend for a minute. Our neighbors are great people and have been so supportive through our loss. It's great when you have people your age with children that live across the street. And especially when you get along with them! :)

We just got Adrian in bed for the night and tomorrow marks another busy day. We have church at 9 and it's Palm Sunday! I love Palm Sunday. I always grew up with the story of Jesus riding into the crowds of people singing Hosanna and fanning Him with palm leaves. I love the story. I love this time of year. I love everything that this time stands for. It gives me hope for the future. Hope of being with Ainslee again. I miss her.

After church we have an Easter egg hunt at noon at church and then naps! And I'll probably be joining in on those.

This next week is my last week of work. My last day is Thursday. I will be 38 weeks pregnant tomorrow. We have 1 week and 5 days until she is here. I can not wait to have Hadlee in my arms and look in the face of her and Adrian. I can not wait to have them both on either side of me and feel the love amongst our family. I'm still praying everyday that she arrives safely, that she is a fabulous nurser and most importantly, that we get to grow old together. That is my prayer for our little family. That we all grow old together.

Easter is quickly approaching and there is a lot to be thankful for and a lot to rejoice about. We are healthy, Hadlee is coming soon, and I will be partaking in the Lord's Supper. How fulfilling will my life be in just two weeks. We already have so much to be thankful for with our marriage, our sweet son, and our little angel in Heaven. But the next two weeks shows me that there are still good things to come. There is beauty amidst a storm. There is always hope.


  1. AMEN!!! Have a wonderful Easter my sweet friend!! Praying for a safe and speedy deliver of our precious Hadlee. Love you!

  2. I'm so excited for you to have little Hadlee! Not that I didn't appreciate having Preslee, but when I had Ledger, a baby in my arms meant the entire world. Hang in there, last couple weeks seem to drag on!